Of Needs and Wants

Dreams of white winters beckon,
We'll never see it, they reckon;
Like soft fluffy white snow,
Hope in them begins to grow.

Was woken up from an unusual afternoon nap by the excited mom waving two letters from SMU, saying, "You open one, I open one". One turned out to be a greeting card from OUA; another a scholarship letter. And there I was, reading them in my semi-conscious "I-want-to-go-back-to-sleep" mind before handing them back to my mother, who commented on my method of opening the envelope - simple plain tearing - in the abovementioned state of mind. "Cantiknya*", she chided. Took a look at her envelope - it was opened without being torn.

Of course I would want to (and I must) thank God, my parents and SMU for being the lovely school it is. I've certainly been given countless examples of the phrases "a blessing in disguise" and "there is a silver lining on every grey cloud" or to that extent. Pardon me for not being able to remember the exact phrases at 2:11 a.m!

After my brother bought a new handphone, I've been clamouring for one too. Anybody who has been tortured by the sight of my handphone has never forgotten to comment on its dismal state. Of course I could buy a new one, but what would happen to the contacts I saved in my phone? The pictures, messages, reminders. Not to mention the sentimental attachment I have to any personal belonging. Karang guni woman, I am. To think of all the trouble I have to go through certainly puts me off the new purchase. Perhaps I just need my things to be functional, not pretty. Perhaps I'm trying to initiate a silent protest against the rapid advancement of technology, where new gadgets get churned out before you have time to get used to the one that you just bought. Perhaps I'm just trying to absolve myself from the guilt of being lazy or stingy. Perhaps perhaps perhaps.

Approximately 2 weeks left till school starts. As much as my travelling plans have gone kaput, I shall be brave and make the most of it. As they (or rather, I) say, look no further; we keep wanting things that are too far from our reach when what we really need are right under our precious noses. There's still so much more to explore in Singapore; a morning bus ride to Singapore Zoo showed me an unseen side of Singapore that was reminiscent of its olden days and a scenic picture of a reservoir. Now all I need to do is to find someone to do the exploring together.

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*This usually means "so pretty". Obviously the word connotates a different meaning over here. :)